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New Beginnings

A time to move,
Start anew.
Never thought it would be,
Without you.

But never mind,
We can’t rewind.
Time will keep doing it’s thing.
Finding the power inside,
Is such a beautiful ride.

Days keep on slipping,
Behind me evermore.
Every day I miss you,
Just a little… less.

Never forget the good times,
And don’t get stuck looking back.
The time is now and forever,
No more spinning off track.

Dragons in the sky,
Clouds whisper by,
Scent of summer in the air,
Soon I will not care.

Soon I will not care,
What you do or do not do.
Whether here or there,
I can’t keep on loving you.

A time to change,
It can’t always feel the same.
Something’s lost within your heart,
How did I miss it from the start?
Maybe it was me.

The journey to that inner smile,
Can be a winding, rambling ride,
Shortcuts exist.
But you’re sure to miss,
If you keep searching outside.

Looking for answers?
Then don’t forget to ask.
The truth can lie inside,
So we must listen to our hearts.

Dragons in the sky,
Clouds whisper by,
Scent of summer in the air,
Soon I will not care.

Soon I will not care,
What you do or do not do.
Whether here or there,
I can’t keep on loving you.

Unbroken

A thousand lovesick letters
Written but never sent,
Long before I knew the truth,
Your honesty was bent.

I do not need to bargain,
Wager my soul or more,
To keep that fear from knocking,
Upon my heart’s closed door.

A delusion can be a grand thing,
As long as you keep it fed,
I once believed that I was weak,
Monsters under my bed.

Lost in love, I lost the most.
Downtrodden and unspoken.
Forgot myself, I was a ghost,
But now my heart’s unbroken.

Appearances are deceptive,
My inner strength did keep,
I struggled to feel whole again,
Against those odds so steep.

Self-imprisoned for so many years,
And now my sprit freed,
A fortunate escape from darkness,
Chaos, jealousy and greed.

Intentions are irrelevant,
Words are softer than deeds,
The security you search for,
Wont be found in pockets deep,

A true friendship shall never be
Something bought or sold,
The only recompense I seek
Is in a heart of gold.

Wants and Needs

The heart wants,
The heart needs,
Not always granted,
At times appeased.
Life isn’t fair,
Sometimes a nightmare.
The key is to be kind to yourself,
Don’t rely on anyone else.

Kind words are blessings,
Forgotten too soon.
Unfair actions of others,
Inscribe our mental cocoons.
Words can also be painful,
So deal them out careful.
Never say never,
Maybe in time you’ll know better.

Fate is a temptress,
So don’t play her game.
Permanence is an illusion,
Deceiving the sane.
Don’t be fooled,
Because some hearts
Will not be true.
And know fear cannot bind us,
It shall only unwind trust.

 

Dark Healer

Everybody wants a piece of her,
A smile, a glance, a word, a touch.
But in reserve she doesn’t hold that much.
An absence of darkness, transformed by her light,
This is her gift, so precious tonight.

To know her is to love her,
Because we are not all that blessed,
With truly knowing what lies in her chest.
A heart full of gold… a soul surely old?
An innocent luminance… glitters of fairy dust?

Lost on the way to finding oneself,
Pulled piece by piece by claimants of help,
But she is hers, not no-one else’s.
Try to own her and you’re surely senseless.
What are you seeking to hold?

A flickering candle in the darkest of nights,
Has a warmth and a brightness,
But it’s not to be held nor swallowed up,
It is what it is, enjoy it as such.

Don’t try to chain her,
Don’t try to blame her,
She is the light,
Holds off the night,
Eyes are so bright,
Love of my life.

Time melts away,
In the warmth of an embrace,
Epic journeys mere stepping stones,
When your hand finds it’s place
In the palm of a beautiful being.

She’s finding her way,
A new way for a new day,
Her right and her privilege.
Life’s now a game we both lust to play.

Don’t try to chain her,
Don’t try to blame her,
She is the light,
Holds off the night,
Eyes are so bright,
Lost love of my life.

Letting Go

Sometimes in life we build a wall around ourselves,
Only to realise that we are defending against an invisible external,
When the hurt and fear we are carrying is held within.
The madness of it all is that these feelings are not ours to hold.
If we break down the walls and open our eyes
We might just see there is no darkness inside anymore.
There is a light shining, however fragile at first.
We must feed this tiny flame with compassion.
Understanding is key to forgiveness.
Forgiving is key to letting go.
Let go, watch the fire grow!

Dance With Life

I’ll keep a little box of hope in my heart
So that maybe we can share a life together again.
But hope is just that… it’s not certain or definite.
It’s just a thing we do to keep on moving.
Keep on moving, that I must.
A little bird told me, one I trust.

You were my little bird for many a year but in that time hope was lost to fear.
The sparkle in those eyes I loved so dear, lost its glimmer when I was near.
Nothing is just as we wish, your hair, your smile, those lips to kiss.
You are yours. You are not mine. A truth I knew but lost in time.

We got lost in time… our souls entwined.
So complicated to unravel.
How far must I travel
To feel whole again?

So to you my beautiful friend,
Go be free and spread your wings.
Know that you will always be the one for me
And that the hope in my heart waits patiently.

I know in my soul we are birds of a feather.
Someday maybe we’ll land on the same branch
And decide to build a new nest together.

Although the hurt I feel is real
I know now it’s not for you to heal.
That is my task, to rise to the challenge.
Letting go of the past, the pain, the strife
The romance I need is my dance with life.

Prison of the mind: Are you ready to escape?

The Time is NowHave you ever woken up with a sink hole feeling?

I find myself at the bottom of a deep dark pit today. I have been teetering over the edge for a lifetime and it has taken everything in me not to fall. But this morning I couldn’t hold on any longer…so I finally let go and sank.

The prison of the mind

The alarm bells were always there from an early age, but as I grew older, I became more adept at turning down the volume, until eventually they simply faded away into the background.

That was when the amnesia of self really began. That’s when the present moment became a thing of the past and the intangible future became my focus. That was when I relinquished control over my existence to invisible forces…those infamous mind shackles locked me up in a labyrinth that I couldn’t find my way out of.

Doubt and uncertainty became the sinister agents of my fate. My destiny felt doomed because it was already preconditioned towards disaster. It was like witnessing a train crash occur right before my eyes and there was nothing I could do to stop it.

I was led in every direction except the right one. I spent my youth screaming ‘Fuck You’ to everything and everyone in society. I sought to hurt rather than be hurt. I tried to numb the confusion rather than feel anything at all. I gave up trying out of an utter fear of failure. After all, I was still in that lonely maze. Cynicism had become my best friend.

Then I went to the opposite extreme, but the delusion only grew stronger. I accepted that life is crap, it’s always going to be crap, and there’s nothing I can do to really change it. I mean, if you can’t beat it, you’ve got to become part of it, right? And so I did.

I surrendered. I subscribed. I conformed. I competed. On the outside, I did everything that you’re supposed to do. I got my good grades at school, I got my first grade honours at university, and thereafter worked incredibly hard to become ‘successful‘ in the eyes of society. I went with the grain and it consumed me entirely. On the inside, I was still screaming. Continue reading Prison of the mind: Are you ready to escape?